A letter from a lover when tables turned!!
7th of December was always a day for my reminder to alert me…something that puts a smile on this wrinkled face, a smile of comfort, a smile of bliss, a smile of joy…each 7th, I give thanks to the almighty and to fate for bringing you my way. And the day is always complete with you in it…either on the other side of the phone receiver or in person. But, today…OMG! Well, I had the rush of blood as usual, happy, with radiant smile, deep breath and fingers at work, dialing 079……….,oops, it rang and rang all day long, for the first time in six years, I do not know your where about on our day. That day, the story of 7th changed. Well, change they say is the only constant in life.
Each day I lay my head , at the closure of my eyes, the image is always there, washing my face in my bathroom, your lovely reflection is what I see in the mirror, the space allotted to you in my heart can and would not be obliterated. Well, I dunno, I keep reviewing the plans we shared, our laughs, tears, happiness, folly, brilliance…all I ever wonder is why?
Why did you have to go?
Why does it have to be me?
Why should we not be together?
Why…∞
Even friends ask, and I can’t say or I do not know how to say you are my Ex, though I know I have to learn to. It is very funny though, I can remember some SMS we shared and I said I can’t imagine you as my X, not knowing it would come right back at me. You know I know not how to love before you came into my life, when girls were the last things on my list, and now, I hardly see anyone good enough. Guess I have to learn, after my heart as been shattered to pieces that can pass thru the eyes of the needle, God help me. I know you think you know where I am going with this epistle, but, I don’t think so. I just let out my heart, I know you’ve chosen your route and probably a new love, and that’s what you feel is best, but honestly, I just wrote to wish you the best of luck in life and hoping you find happiness in your new lease of life.
7th of December was always a day for my reminder to alert me…something that puts a smile on this wrinkled face, a smile of comfort, a smile of bliss, a smile of joy…each 7th, I give thanks to the almighty and to fate for bringing you my way. And the day is always complete with you in it…either on the other side of the phone receiver or in person. But, today…OMG! Well, I had the rush of blood as usual, happy, with radiant smile, deep breath and fingers at work, dialing 079……….,oops, it rang and rang all day long, for the first time in six years, I do not know your where about on our day. That day, the story of 7th changed. Well, change they say is the only constant in life.
Each day I lay my head , at the closure of my eyes, the image is always there, washing my face in my bathroom, your lovely reflection is what I see in the mirror, the space allotted to you in my heart can and would not be obliterated. Well, I dunno, I keep reviewing the plans we shared, our laughs, tears, happiness, folly, brilliance…all I ever wonder is why?
Why did you have to go?
Why does it have to be me?
Why should we not be together?
Why…∞
Even friends ask, and I can’t say or I do not know how to say you are my Ex, though I know I have to learn to. It is very funny though, I can remember some SMS we shared and I said I can’t imagine you as my X, not knowing it would come right back at me. You know I know not how to love before you came into my life, when girls were the last things on my list, and now, I hardly see anyone good enough. Guess I have to learn, after my heart as been shattered to pieces that can pass thru the eyes of the needle, God help me. I know you think you know where I am going with this epistle, but, I don’t think so. I just let out my heart, I know you’ve chosen your route and probably a new love, and that’s what you feel is best, but honestly, I just wrote to wish you the best of luck in life and hoping you find happiness in your new lease of life.
Heart broken
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